Making plans for possible Placebo show in 2014. In another country and going with and meeting someone I’ve known and talked to for 10 years and never met. That’s three times as exciting now.
I feel like shit on top of all the other shitty symptoms from not taking anything we can now add all the fun ones from last night to the top of the list.
I was wide awake unable to sleep till about 4 am. I felt like something was crawling inside my skin. I had to keep moving my legs to try stop the feeling but it wouldn’t help. I moved to scratching my legs and arms till i broke the skin; it felt as if something was crawling inside my skin. My only way of describing it is like the scarabs from the mummy movies. It was unreal. I didn’t think coming off anti-depressants would make me feel this shitty.
So plan for tonight; I just took 4mg of ativan to help me sleep. so goodnight tumblr. wish me luck.
I feel like I am dying. I am trying to get off my antidepressants. I still have a headache, my left eye has been twitching for three days straight. I spend most of my time sleeping and when I am not sleeping every little sound feels like nails on a chalkboard. I feel like I am going to snap.
A guy came into the minimart I work at tonight and we made small talk as I waited on him. I went to say have a goodnight and he asked if I am single. I said yeah … why? He asked if he could have my number. It was so awkward the man must have zero gaydar. My only response was well you could but I doubt you’d get what your after considering I’m a lesbian.
Going to bed early tonight. I have a doctors appointment in the morning. Wish me luck .